My take on the gym

Okay, so…the dreaded gym. Well it’s not dreaded when you begin going and start enjoying yourself… I tell fibs.

However, recently when I have been in the gym I have been forming somewhat an opinion – or actually lets call it an observation on people.

For example…Makeup?! How on earth can some women wear a full face of makeup, full on contour, lipstick, eyeshadow and eyelashes to workout in? honestly do they not sweat like me? I look like a whale that has surfaced onto the pavement when I exercise. My face goes bright red and I sweat an excessive amount. If I was to wear makeup to the gym I could open a bakery from all of the cake coming off of my face. – I’m so envious that these women can wear that and look utterly perfect whilst working out, it’s not fair!

Another observation I found yesterday was the leg press. Now, we all have a little rest on the leg press machine because, erm its difficult! but this guy was full on sat on the leg press machine for 30 minutes on his phone – then there is me free willy trying to make eye contact so I can go on it and get what I needed to do done – you see I like to go to the gym as quickly as possible haha. But he literally did not move for the duration of his time on the leg press. There was not one leg extension or even so much of a movement, apart from his thumbs on his mobiles keyboard!

I love watching the men have testosterone wars though (I don’t observe from the leg press just to add). They all stand before the big gym mirrors, pumping there shoulders and chests as much as possible…maybe to assert authority to one another, i’m not sure. But I just find it interesting to watch because I myself would never flex in the gym mirror – I mean I only have cellulite to flex at the moment but it still counts!

My last observation would be getting side tracked by how some people look flawless whilst working out. They literally have the perfect form, perfect gym wear and know exactly what they’re doing. It shys me away from the weight area because I get worried i’m going to break my back or make myself look like a complete twat…I do my weight lifting when no one is around to avoid the embarrassment…I have also decided that I need to invest in some cool “gym goer” gym wear, just for the added affect…

Thank you for reading as always – I also am loving the communication on instagram – My follower count isn’t high but I like that you all interact with me on there! @intentforcontent

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Contentment

My views on contentment have completley changed these past few months. I feel like without realising I was searching for someone to feel whole. However , I have learnt that you don’t need somebody to feel whole or content…

I hadn’t really taken a step back to look at how my life was because I was engulfed in a routine of not being alone, spending time alone or thinking alone. That was the routine I thought I liked or the one I was forced into. But life for me isn’t like that now.

I have fallen in love with my own routine and my own life all over again. I love snuggling up at night by myself and watching tv before I go to bed in my own bedroom, with my own thoughts. I love going to the gym alone and swimming or sitting in the steam room alone. I love the fact that I have my independance back as it was stolen from me and replaced was a shell of the woman I am now. I was being supressed which in exchange made me depressed . I had no plans for my future however now I know I have a future. I am strong and resilient and kind to others and myself…I am so glad that I am back…

Extracting the bad out of your life is a huge step towards contentment and learning that contentment is found within yourself is another point to remember. Don’t get me wrong I love the people I have surrounding me, because they are the right people, they can make me laugh and smile and take any pressure I might be feeling away. They are kind and helpful and provide me with a metaphorical place I can call home. They contribute to my contentment inside and out and I am grateful they exist.

When it boils down to it…at the end of the day, you are you and always will be so it is important to find contentment your own way…

Lots of love

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My Bestfriend

She is strong,

She is beautiful,

She is powerful,

She is the kindest,

She is honest,

She is my bestfriend…

She knows when i’m sad and when i’m happy. She can detect how i’m feeling from a single message or a look. Thats what I love about her,

I admire her strength because oh has she faced things that some would cave to,

I admire her beauty because she has it inside and out, those close to her feel safe and respected, she lights up a room with her smile and confidence,

I admire her power, her opinion matters to me, she has the ability to set me straight and help me see things from anothers perspective,

I admire her kindness, anyone that knows her knows that she would do anything for anyone, she gives and gives, and will always make you feel included and wanted,

I admire her honesty, I find it rare in others honesty…but my best friend will tell you when you’re right or wrong, whether that suits you or it doesn’t, she is the realest,

I am proud of her. Proud that we have shared a friendship for the best part of 10 years. We may argue and disagree (sometimes more often than others) but we get through it and adapt to eachother growing up. We are individuals at different levels, but to eachother we are equals.

That is my best friend.

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Future Findings

Isnt the future such a crazy, scary but exciting thing.

I love imagining my future or talking about it. What do you think about when you think about your future?…

I think about success and never settling. I imagine myself in a gorgeous flat overlooking the sea or a city…there is no inbetween for those two pictures in my head, my home has got to be there or no where. I see myself succeeding and smiling. I see my family safe and happy and successful. I have this beautiful imagination and a goal that cannot be tainted.

I want to give myself an incredible career. I see myself as a top end lawyer. My favourite vision is of myself stood in court. I am defending the innocent, proving the findings I have, battling the wrong doings of the world and not sitting down until it is done. You know when you can create a photo in your head of something? You can feel it inside yourself that, that creation is a guideline to your current state. I believe that is your heart speaking to you in some sort of way, it is giving you that chance to see what your future could be like if you try and you work and you don’t give up. I feel that it is so important that everyone realises that the world has copious amounts of oppurtunity for us.

I am guilty of being side tracked from my future. Everyone worries about me because my head is in the clouds and I am too kind for my own good. Which is fair enough. However, I know that when I sit alone, like I am sat now, I am writing this from my heart and my head. I know where I want to get to and who I want to become. I know that I will get there if I dream enough and protect the mental creation of my future with anything and everything.

I want to achieve more than just earning money, I want a life, I want to travel and see things whilst loving and living. I want to look back one day and never feel like I settled for less, because I am deserving of so many things…I just don’t believe that sometimes.

There is so much to find in this life, so many stones to turn. So much to experience and find and fall in love with. I believe that thinking about your future is imperative to your success in life. It helps to guide you…but always remember to have fun and smile.

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Chained Pathways

Now. I know it has been a while. I suppose I became uninspired for a while…which is completley normal when you are going through some difficulty on the interior and exterior of your life. You morphe into a completley different person when times get difficult. It is almost as if your soul has left your body and is waiting to come back when you feel like smiling again. As long as we remember that our soul is going to come back, everything will be okay.

I reached a halt at multiple pathways. I was confused about the pathway I was walking down, where I was headed, who I was headed with and what I was doing in life. I still do get confused, however, I somewhat feel as if I am healing…I am making decisions to create a better me, I am following my heart, what makes me excited, what brings out my big beautiful grin that got lost in these pathways last year.

I am unchaining the lines in my palms and the nail which was placed in my heart. I feel content, happy, relieved…

As I type I remember how happy this blog makes me. It was something I lost direction of.

Hope you are all well

Thank you for reading…I am back

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The Poison Predicament

I was shuddering uncontrollably, the pain seeping through my system like an electric shock. The colour violet replaced my once rosy cheeks, draining my olive coloured skin until it was yellow. Throbbing pulsated on my ankle, travelling up my leg, almost as if someone was running a knife through me. My vision dipped in and out of focus as I tried to concentrate on getting to my phone…

I awoke in hospital. Everything was fuzzy, I could only feel the warmth in my cheeks as I tried to wiggle my toes and move my legs. It was a dull feeling of pins and needles. Almost as if someone had strapped me down onto the hospital bed and I couldn’t escape. I rolled my head to the side and saw my mum. Worry spread across her face, especially her eyes, as she watched her daughter lay nearly lifeless before her.

Doctors surrounded me, as if I was priority. Poking and prodding at me trying to figure out what was wrong and why I couldn’t feel anything. I felt weak as I watched the drip I was attached to feed me like I was a little baby again and that was my plastic spoon. Hushed voices chimed in sync together, discussing and determining what was happening, pointing at the only clue they had…the blister on my ankle. It was now a hole. Black, red and purple mixing together and settling around it to indicate something was wrong. That’s what poisoned me…that little patch where my trainer had rubbed and broken the skin It was covering…that’s what nearly killed me…

Sepsis.

All of the following facts and descriptions come from sepsis trust: https://sepsistrust.org

  • Sepsis affects 25,000 children each year in the UK
  • Sepsis kills 44,000 people every year in the UK
  • Sepsis kills 5 people every hour in the UK

Sepsis is the body’s overwhelming and life-threatening response to infection that can lead to tissue damage, organ failure and death. Medically, sepsis is your body’s immune system over responding to an infection.

Donate to sepsis trust to help educate individuals and support those who have suffered from sepsis. I was incredibly lucky too of been made a priority on arrival at conquest hospital Hastings. I will always be grateful.

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